HER.

I dont know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every part of my body is broken too.

- Chloe Woodward

so naturally this one is for you.

and you know who YOU is if it's you.

lol.

nahh seriously when i love i love deeply and truly.

give it my all if i can.

and i do it whole - heartdly everyone makes mistakes ya know ?

so i dont blame people for their faults because i have a list of minee.

but i dont like being lied to over and over and over.

it happens so much that it's ridiculous.

and when i trust someone with my heart i trust them WITH MY HEART.

i had to give up alot of things to be with you and when i made that descion i was prepared for everything that went along with it.

but it seems like you weren't.

you knew that my rents didnt trust me - so of course they wasnt gonna let you come and get me.

of course i aint have my phone - so i had to try to call you whenever I COULD.

but theirs those thirsty ones.

the ones who got a car and could come and get you whenever.

ya know - the hoes and the bitches ?

the one who " wanted to be me " or the one who knows " you cant live without me "

the ones who knew your weaknessess.

and could easily make you stray .

i aint even gonna stress that shit because clearly i got wrapped into my little shit too...

but ughhhhh its different when its YOU that it's happenning too.

and you were scared i was going to break up with you.

but in reality it was you that I had to be afraid of.

no matter what i say or what the hell i do things will remain the same that just because you love someone and they love you too doesnt meant that you should be together.

thats dumb.

why cant you be with someone who you got feelings for.

or how come when your with that person and they say they with you 110 % no questions asked and making promises to you they end up breaking your heart.

"lets be friends - best friends "

i swear karmas a bitch. the biggest bitch i know. i say that to people who i dont care about. people who i knew wasnt gonna be LONG TERM and you said it to ME.

so with that mentality of not caring in my head how am i SUPPOSED to let it go.

please let me know because i dont know what else it could possibly mean.

feels like the tables been turned.

you say you love me right ?

well just like i told HIM - love dont hurt folk .

but hmmmmm clearly it does ?

because that seems to be the new thing.

hurting the people you cant live without.

because you know you cant live without me right ?

once you with arielle - theres no going back.

i wont let it happen is what im saying ( no cockiness intended )

but if i gotta let you go to be secure in myself and future relationships - thats what im going to do.

my sanity depends on it.

sigh...